I see her in the distance
It’s been too long
She isn’t the way I remember her
Maybe I imagined her wrong.
She’s more radiant, authentic, real
And I can see her flaws
But that’s what makes her the
Girl I once loved.
I hesitate, should I move towards her?
Should I utter a meaningless greeting?
After all these battles and wounds
Will she be hostile; bleeding?
Should I be too? After all she
Broke me, bled me till I was black and white
Till colour wasn’t in my dictionary
Yes, I will keep my stand and fight.
She broke my heart,
I’ll break her apart.
But her eyes catch hold of me
Like dreams in a dream catcher
Like a forest fire beautifully ablaze
Like the spectrum of her laughter
I remember as her eyes search mine
The childish crinkles and giggles
She’s more beautiful than in my dreams
Memories, traditions and kisses.
I was wrong.
I replaced my heart with my liver
My dreams with revenge
And my nightmares with her.
I move towards her and see
Her eyes, bubbling with fear
Did I really scar her so badly
She can’t have me near?
Pools of unbridled emotion emerge
And I take a step towards her
She doesn’t move away
My senses blur.
I’ve never seen her so afraid
She was my queen and I was her king
But the girl in front of me
Is a deer in headlights, carefully listening.
I move closer. Her hand
On my face is my medi-sin
Her scent, her eyes, her neck
She is my skin.
She is my home.
I was running away
Elixirs and potions to drown my fear
All I needed was her to stay.
I’ll stop running away now.
I need her, now and forever.
She is my home.
She is my autumn sweater.